Look around you...

From the death of relatives, to the death of khairul to someone famous like heath ledger.. Look around you, they're missing.. but never gone.. all you have to do is open your heart to find them.. obviously some people dont have hearts and really treat you like shit.. not to mention any names.. but its people like them who we dont throw our lives to.. people like them who we should nvr shed a tear over.. the people who really matter are the ones deep inside of you.. the ones that have a place in your heart, your family.. your brothers, mum, dad, even your mum's bf.. your friends, the ones that will be there with you till ur last minutes, be at the hospital with you till the early hours.. the ones that give u warm advice... look around cause there arent many of them around but im so glad i have a handful of wonderful ones.. <3

She's just a spec of dust in your room.. i nvr wish i was sorry to you.. and i take back everything i've said to you before.. your obviously just a kid.. thinking everything's a game.. im actually sory for you becuase you'll nvr find someone like me to treat you as good as i did.. and to top it off i was foolish.. looking back, you really nvr cared about how i felt.. you knew i nvr wanted to hear his name again, and you even said to forget about him.. but then nooooooo, you went to a movie premiere with that hemaphrodite, then kept texting him and keeping in contact with him when u very well knew my situation.. btw i hated it when u replied his texts when u were on the phone to me.. and i hated how you kinda used me.. yea.. come to think of it, your just as bad as the plastics in mean girls... you dont directly show it.. but you are.. So look around you cause theere arent many people out there that are true to themselves.. and i hope you and paul do go out somehow.. cause u two are perfect for each other.. you just wanna use him for his contacts in the movie industry and he just wants the sex.. good job.. kotek besar..

VERUN

A back view of the mamak man himself.. XD

The final stage..

This has been the hardest month of my life.. and im glad its almost finally over; almost finally over you..

Songs to emotions

Hello.. kaci brown= drooolsss*.. she's an amazing singer and i picked up one of her songs- unbelievable from the Hills.. and iam now in love with that song.. I love it cause it makes me happy and somehow it always makes me think of one person, but all the happy memories with that person of course.. oh boy do i miss that person.. and its no crime to miss someone, so i dont expect slack from anyone!.. =D thank you.. and i hope its not a crime either to cry sometimes, it sucks that no one understands when an emotional man has to shed tears.. Thats why i come to bristol to see Brian C.- Emo bastard of the world haha and greg D. who always sheds some light on my emotional state- he made me write this.. one who understands that tears are words in liquid form.. I hope she knows that i'll always be here for her no matter what.. even tho ppl dont want us to be together, i'll be there.. its not a crime to care.. i miss her, i really do..

About my nickname.. on msn.. its just a song..

Writing about my msn nickname.. its just from a song by KACI BROWN- Unbelievable.. which btw is an awesome song!.. and she is super duper hot..! take a look.. wow.. haha.. however, i do think of someone when i listen to this song.. i miss her.. alot..

A-d-d-i-c-k

Lately, i've been watching too much tv.. Mainly THE HILLS.. its actually some what frustrating because of the stuff they do and decisions they make.. like for example, lauren GIVES UP AN INTERNSHIP AT PARIS (FASHION CAPITAL OF THE WORLD) to go see jason WHO SHE BROKE UP WITH AFTER THE SUMMER.. i feel sooo annoyed for her at the same time iam annoyed at her.. kinda reminds me of my winter hols but on a much higher degree of importance... btw i love lauren, i think she's amazing and is currently my dream gf.. oh lauren.. however, rumours of kirsten from laguna, might be appearing in season 4.. so if that does happens then i might have to reconsider what i just said.. cause... kirsten.. is.. *drools.. the .. secks.. =D

ok bb.